Resting in Him

Tonight, my heart is filled with confidence. Not in myself, but whom I serve. I’m confident tonight in His love. 

As I laid down tonight, my heart was intensely heavy. My feelings (which were not of Him, but of flesh) seemed to be overtaking me. It seemed my thoughts were as dark as my room. I planned on going straight to sleep so I wouldn’t have to battle the thoughts and selfish desires in my head. 

But of course, the Holy Spirt kept me awake. Convicting me, that I couldn’t go to sleep until I fought the lies. I knew in that moment, I had to speak HIS truths over myself. *That is and always will be the most sufficient way to fight the schemes and lies of the enemy. 

I turned to Luke 15 and began to read Gods word. I was overwhelmed of the Lords faithfulness. Reading the story of the lost sheep + the lost coin reminded me of his constant pursuit. But then... I began to read the story towards the end of the passage. It was about the prodigal son who was driven by greed, foolishness and selfish desires. He took advantage of His father’s inheritance, left town and blew this blessing. Later, He recognized the mistake he had made, He felt as if He was unworthy of His fathers love. The son decided to go home to His father. He didn’t just feel sorry and think about repenting, instead He acted on it.  He knew in His heart, he had to repent. When He arrived, He said to his Father, “Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you, and I am no longer worthy to be called your son. Make me like one of your hired servants.” Vs 20 says “And while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion and ran and embraced Him and kissed him” As I read this passage I began to weep... 

He reminded me of His undeserving Love. He reminded me of His grace. He reminded me of His faithfulness. 

I’m grateful that I serve a God that welcomes me with arms of compassion. I don’t deserve that kind of love but he gives it anyway. 

I desire to be more like the son in this passage. He was so focused on returning to His Father.  He knew in His heart, He had to come back. We will never be too far gone to return to our Heavenly Father. He is worthy of our return. 

Romans 5:8 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.